The sort of things I'm interested in include art, music, scientific theory , metaphysics, shamanism, using different technologies available to further the intellectual evolution of man, learning about different cultures and spiritualities and philosophies and things along the lines of blatant facts of life and the way it isn't working things like Explaining the Tenth Dimension and time travel. But I really don't think that there will ever be anyone I can talk about these things with, or at least not from my experience living in Ohio my whole life. I think that's why I don't really have a social life. It's strange that I am such an extroverted person when my favorite thing to do is get lost in my mind. I really want to live in the middle of nowhere with nothing but my puppy : Julio. He and I will sit in the woods and roll in the flowers and contemplate the universe completely free of outside judgement. We will live as free men, Julio and I, and we will have a mystical garden where we will meet with the faeries. I just want a garden and a dog and a woods. I honestly have no other goal or desire in life, which makes everyday life in my current situation a continual draaagggg because the hoops you have to jump through all eventually lead you down a path that I have no interest in pursuing, so I feel like I'm wasting some of the best years of my 1 AND ONLY LIFE doing crap that I honestly find no value in. I hope things get better in the future, but I also feel like my whole life is going to be waiting. In grade school they told us that highschool would be better, in highschool they tell you it's okay college will be better, when that sucks they tell you life will finally start FOR REALZ THIS TIME once you're out of college, then they tell you it'll be good once you're married (because who doesn't only want school college marriage career) then once that happens and you're stillllll not actually doing what you want they tell you you'll have free time and the ability to do what you want FOR REALS THO this time when you retire...... and now people can't retire, and by the time you do you're so old you cannot do anything because you're already deteriorated beyond the point of natural life because modern medicine refuses to let the weak die thus crowding the already overcrowded rotting planet you get to die waiting in.
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..........................I kind of write with my stream of consciousness, so have fun following my train of thought go off the rails.
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